Here I am at 24 weeks, with week 3 of bed rest down, and 15 to go. I have decided that I am going to try to blog a lot more. I am feeling down right now and I am having a hard time WANTING to lay around. I know all of you are thinking, "Man, I would love to have to lay around." Trust me I thought so too. NOT SO GREAT!!! My doctor told me that if I could have a few "GOOD" weeks, she would think about letting me go back to work, well, after a week and a half of pretty good days, I had some crazy break through contractions and they had to up my meds. :-( This means that I am here longer.
It is just hard watching other people have to do so much of "my jobs". I HATE watching Lance have to do all the cleaning, but what can I do? I hate not being able to play with Rachel as much as she would like. She understands that we want the baby to be healthy, but it is hard.
All I can think about is the holidays and how all that is going to work. Shopping online (EEEEK!!!) I am not big on it, but it looks like that is the only way. Christmas pictures? Do I really have to give those up? Everyone has been wonderful, and I am truly grateful, but I just need some cheering up. Knowing you are in for the long haul is harder than going week to week. At least with Rachel I could look forward to maybe going back to work, but I don't have much of a chance with this one, being so early with the complications. All I can do is pray and look forward to my Saturdays when I can count down another week!!!
I will go for now, I have a bunch of pics to post, so I will get on that ASAP!!!
I recall going through the same thing 3 times.It is hard but well worth it in the end.I wish you the best of luck and will keep you in my prayers.
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